Adoption

That's a word I have been seeing and hearing a lot recently. It's a word that means many, many things to me. When I hear it, the first thing that pops into my head is my husband.

My husband was adopted 36 years ago by his wonderful parents.  2 years later they adopted his brother and then 16 years later, they adopted his sister.  3 very fortunate children living with two very caring parents (they didn't all live under the same roof at the same time).

When I met my husband, I knew he was adopted, I had been a friend of the family. When we fell in love and got married we both knew we would one day like to adopt but first we wanted to have our own children. Nearly 12 years and 2 children later, the topic seems to be in our faces (probably more mine than his) and I'm wondering if this is the time to start pursuing it.  Is this the time contact an agency and get the ball rolling?  Or should we wait?  How do we know when the time is right?  Is it possible to even know?  I always kind of hoped, that the opportunity would just fall into our laps but alas, it hasn't thus far.

How do we know this is what God wants for our family? Will we be able to transition easily into this new roll?  Will our own children be at ease about new kids moving in?  Will I be able to handle another kid or two or maybe three?  Can I give each of them love equally?  What happens if something goes wrong?  Is having a heart for adoption enough?  Will our families support us in this endeavor? What if they don't, can we do it alone?  How will we know that the kids chosen for us should be ours?

So many questions and no few answers.

Dear God,

Help me to hear your answers, hear your voice, hear what you want for us.
Thank you Lord for those answers.

Amen