FRUSTRATION

That is the word of the day.

It's such a horrible word, one I hate.  Feeling frustrated is not something I enjoy and certainly not something those around me like me to feel.  Because as much as I try not to take my frustration out on someone else, it's sometimes hard to do and a little slips out.

Two weeks ago we had the new IEP meeting for my oldest son who suffers from speech issues, mostly being able to communicate clearly what it is that he is trying to say.  Part of the IEP, recommended that we have him tested for CAPD (Central Auditory Processing Disorder).  I called almost right away about getting him an appointment.  Last week we received the paperwork to fill out and along with it was a note that said that they do NOT bill the insurance for two parts of the testing and that we would have to pay out of pocket for the test, to the tune of $285-$500.  So not cheap and payment is due at the time of the testing, no payment plans.  We also have to call the insurance company and ensure that they will pay for other parts of the testing too so the amount paid out of pocket could go up.  A lot.....  And no one seems to be able to tell us what the pluses are to having him tested, other than they'll know more of what they are dealing with.  They can't tell us what they will be able to do for him.  It's all a little frustrating.

For now, I just want to crawl into bed, have a good long cry and go to sleep. Maybe tomorrow I'll feel better.